Only that family, and life

 Only that family, and life
Yang Xianping
1, background
2001, the Badan Jilin's fall seems slightly different from previous years, 9 the end of the beginning hot weather wine cooler, large and small wind came from the depths of the desert, after the leaves growing dry, gray old buildings and pedestrians on the cheek mm I often walked between them, and sometimes rode, sometimes walking, leaves and dust on the floor. But leaves can be seen, but it is hiding the fine dust. I walked to see the ground, look at the trees, not consciously feel the cold, seems to enter the blood. to early October, or later again, some trees on already bare, the branches of steel bars, as in the wind, day and night shaking.
In fact, as early as late August, we clearly felt the fall, continued to expand in the wind cool,UGG boots clearance, step forward. this time In addition to work, I have rarely walk out. too often: the Internet, drinking, chatting and visiting friends. Even the evening, in addition to the outside from the window to see the day, the ground between the sand and the people, rubbing rubbed my eyes to back down in front of the sofa or the computer. At this time, the unit's local area network open soon, we all felt fresh, a lot of people soaked in the above, do not even eat and sleep off the assembly line. Although there are viruses, sudden power outages can burn machine hh we are elated, not Guannameduo. put all energy into the LAN Amateur above. and thus alienated the usual friends, and even married life.
Later, several users on the LAN and the fiery playing, one of which girl mm, surnamed Li, had just graduated points to long ago. Later I learned that we both lived in the same building, meet every day, within close proximity of a sudden became very close and far off. because of the speculative talk, character close to will be particularly affectionate, sometimes between words in the above day, unable to stop. this time, the lover appeared, she saw me and said to the girl something that outrageous, then without any explanation as to my name, and the others taught a pass. and angry with me a night each hold a quilt, wall Cold War. but that does not really stop, love to go out, I already talked in full swing, but has not been involved to love and marriage, I felt sorry , and later feel lucky.
the best time to chat at night, quiet night, as long as the head and the keyboard, turn the wheel Yeah, like turn, snapping crisp sound, especially late at night and can be heard, far away . The long-term bubble net and chat, resulting in his wife's discontent. the middle and interspersed with friends gathering, units and friends treat, head rush every time, between cups, drunk a lot, running back, rushed into the toilets, toilet aligned, Wah-Wah shoot out. his wife beat his back complained, and he vowed since then do not drink. But after sober one with dinner, according to drinking worthwhile. drunk as usual vomiting. married to the wife of one year more and more intolerable, especially in terms of married life.
soon, once winter arrived, fast off guard, but with a dull sound. this time, my clothes suddenly become very warm, people go from the outside Way to be not so relaxed, even those who exercise habits and people who run the night and also wear a mask and hat. I am a reluctant movement, the computer in front of and interest to the day when you can sit tight,Discount UGG boots, ass like rock. love to sit admire my work has been called the King, stinky ass. but just praise shortly and angry, forced off the network, or intentionally pulled the gates. After dark,cheap UGG boots, off my underwear, climb to her bed: this is the best place in the world, the flesh of incense, incense hh bedding, especially those who love the most desirable for storage of their own body and soul.
2, that person is coming
winter evening is quiet, although echoing corridor of impact pots and pans, men and children drinking mora twitter, but as long as the door was closed, in addition to the same sharp knife, have been blocked and blocked the walls. love cooking, cooking is the players, get married less than a year, I jumped from the 56 kg to 65 kg. albeit marginally, but I still want to use more voices, the most piercing should be the husband and wife quarrel, and the neighborhood shouting, though reluctant, and depression, but in the end, as is often the cry of a similar broken gong.
this time, we usually eat light Comparison of bright, bold colors of chopsticks and mouth in between the dishes disappear in the teeth of the friction of food make us feel the pleasure of eating and living with a certain pleasure. Retroflex Suffixation we say something, say this and that, say his parents , brother, sister and some relatives hh unknowingly, the original dishes were looted our leaving only the green or yellow vegetable juice a. this time, I always have to clean up, wash dishes, clean up the table. We have no clear division of labor, one long years of repeating one thing, it is cruel.
usual sitting in front of a computer, and my heart is to talk to the person speculation. enter the chat room, they put two light, in many of the names above the search. suddenly see to can not wait, wait for them to suddenly flew together, chat it a one of these years, turned upside down. but his wife looked at the side, must make serious and casual expression, in order to avoid she noticed. but the woman feel delicate to the point of dry soil, water, submerged, and her sense of smell unrivaled. Specifically, it was 9 at the end of 2001, a dusk, the wife suddenly tired of eating greasy stuff on the vomiting , and a look of lazy and tired. I subconsciously think she might upset stomach, or got a bad cold. I asked, her arm to the bed quilt cover, then pour the water out, and took cold medicine, her eating. I can no longer chat on the Internet, and clean after the wash, two people lying in bed, talking, East and West, and while not asked her a little uncomfortable. better, we watch TV, laugh, with tears, for those bumbling men and women.
should be early October 2001 the day, coming back from work at noon, Dizhenaodai, shoes in the lively sound of the corridor without any repercussions. to their door, the wife is busy the cook. She stewed pork ribs in the kitchen, I walked over from behind, standing behind her, she turned, suddenly startled, tapped his chest, the rebuke of the sentence. the meals are on the table After the wash out of his wife, sitting beside me, holding my arm, head on my shoulder and said: tell you a good thing. I looked at her, and secretly asked themselves, that there is no good thing can occur.
I was silent, and later a lot of guess, no guess. In fact, the previous few days, she had sensed, but dared not identified. For this matter, I never worry. she finally When told that my face must be very cold, and some surprise. I felt a sudden, one mixed with some faint concern. My wife, of course the performance will not be happy, pursed his mouth to refuse food in protest. but a person , a life here, more than anything real.
bed, two people speaking, I feel heavy, and even some can not afford. I suddenly became depressed anxiety. I think a man came, I thought: a person, a life, I can not take him (her) could not put him (her) life is now linked. I once again felt the rolling of the depth of pain, the kind of pain only in my family when the suffering and oppression will only hit the tip of the same. Now, how is it they come out? all night, I have been asking themselves, endure pain.
I have to stop him (her) came to the wife flatly refused a resolute attitude was cold. I think I must bear, and from now on, ready to meet him (her) preparation. Later,UGGs, the situation changes a little bit of play, my wife's belly, like mood and, day by day upsurge.
accurately said, to three months, when the man his wife's belly to bulge slightly. In many cases, the wife pulled me to the head pressure in her lower abdomen, that you listen Listen, son inside moving miles, guess what he was doing? I said turned over and stretched out. wife must be a must, and then to my own one. I began to have had a psychological conflict or even indifference, so that the mother When asked on the phone, I did not reveal too many happy tone. mothers and wives over there, like spirits, have put down the microphone to the side, his voice shaking to tell his father.